...long before the day Kara was born. But here she is on Nov. 30, 2007.On this day last year we flew to Michigan, we met Kara's birthparents, we marveled at the hospitality of the people, hotel staff, and hospital staff in Michigan. At midnight tonight we went with the birthparents to the hospital to check her in. We heard Kara's heartbeat for the first time. Our lives completely changed---and the worrying began. Would the birth go ok? Would she be healthy? Would this all really go according to the way we dreamed?
Tonight we continue to worry. Our poor little bug has another urinary tract infection and we spent the evening last night at First Care. We spent the whole night with her in our bed with a fever that would not break, with towels around her waiting for her to start throwing up. We spent all day today trying to keep her fever down and trying to keep anything down her. The emotions of parenting are completely unable to describe. The love, the worry, the helpless feeling when she looks at me with huge tears running down her face and there is nothing I can do about the pain. Having to wake her up to give her antibiotics when she finally is able to sleep.
I had to cancel her 1st year pictures today (rescheduled for Wed.) and also had to cancel her birthday party for tomorrow. What a way to spend her first birthday. This evening about 8 her fever finally broke, she kept down 8 oz. of formula and went to sleep pretty quickly. She has slept soundly now for almost 3 hours. I sit here exhausted, emotionally drained, wanting a shower and so in love with a tiny 23-pound little girl that I am sick to my stomach. Kara and I slept through our Thanksgiving dinner that we were to have with my parents today. My dad cooked everything, brought it ALL over to our house and they ate it alone. Aaron ate a bit later--alone--and I was too sad to eat it. I went out and got Mc Donald's.
We did have a wonderful Thanksgiving on Thurs. I will post about that when I feel up to it.
6 comments:
I still cannot believe that is has been a year since I answered the phone so early in the morning to hear your voice tell me that "She is here." I adore that little girl more than words can say. I am so sad she is sick and I hope she is feeling happy and giggly on her birthday tomorrow.
I'm so sorry that Kara is sick, it doesn't really get much easier while they continue to get bugs later down the line. You guys are amazing parents, and doing a great job. If I find the parenting manual to prepare you for everything later, I'll mail it to you, but my Mother is still looking for it. I love you guys and think of you daily..
Happy 1st Birthday Kara! I can't believe that it has been a year. I am so sorry to hear that she is so sick. You two are amazing parents and I am sure she will be back to herself soon. I recall this time last year on a daily basis. I hope that you are able to get caught up on some sleep as Kara does.
Well this year has gone by SO fast. And it's still very sad. Im so sorry that she is sick I hope she gets to feeling better as soon as she can. I love you so much,more than words can express. I hope you know that. And I always will. Happy birthday baby girl. Your are such amazing parents and I hope you know that. :]
She is so cute and I can't believe she is one. We'd love to send a gift if you feel comfortable with that. Our phone is 541-921-3917. I'm Kristina's mom.
Happy Birthday Kara!
We are glad to hear you are feeling better. Hope you are back to your "old" cheerful self in no time at all. Stop over sometime when you are in Pasadena.
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