This morning J took a different brand it came up with a faint +. This evening she took another one--the digital one and here it is!!! She said she had been avoiding me for the last few days because she had been feeling sick but didn't want me to get my hopes up since it was so early. I am seriously thinking twins now...oh my gosh.
I e-mailed my RE today asking if we can have the first BETA on Thurs. instead of next Monday. When I had my 5 day transfer I only had to wait till Day 10. I am confused as to why they would want her to wait until Day 14. Especially since she has had positive HPTs since Day 5! We will see. For now--all is good. I can't believe it. 5 1/2 years of waiting for this moment and now that I am here I don't know what to do with myself. Do I do what 99% of people do when they get pregnant? Do I think about it constantly, think of names, dream of what it will be like to ACTUALLY have a baby? Aaron and I stopped thinking like that about 3 years ago when it really became apparent that it wasn't going to happen 'the old fashioned way.' I don't want this moment to end. I want to allow myself to think like that, even if only for a few weeks. I don't want to spend the next weeks stressing about the numbers, saying I will wait to get excited when we have the first ultrasound and find out that 'they' are the right size. I want to bask in my moment like most women do. Am I crazy? Am I setting myself up for more heartache?
8 comments:
Bask in the joy baby, bask!!! This is so awesome Kim, though I know VERY unbelievable for you on so many levels. Have Aaron give you a little pinch to be sure it is real. Yippee!!
Yes! Bask! If something bad should happen (god forbid) you'll deal with it then. It won't hurt any more because you allowed yourself to feel joy, it will hurt the same.
But don't deny yourself the sheer excitement that you're feeling now. you'll never get these first few days, and weeks of wonder back.
GOOD LUCK! I'm so excited for you guys.
Yahoo! Wonderful news, what a great picture, too. I am so happy for you guys! It worked!
If you feel like basking, bask away! I agree with Dee -- enjoy every moment. You DESERVE to.
Wonderful news Kim, so excited for you. Like everyone else said, enjoy it honey, you've come down a long, hard, road to get this.
Fantastic news! And what a great picture. I'm thrilled for you hon. This is definitely basking time.
Those digitals are the scariest pregnancy tests! There is no "in between". Believe me--I am a connoisseur of PTs!!! The hcg must be very high. Savor this! Congratulations!
Kim I am sitting here trying to blink back the tears in my eyes. They came like a flood when I saw the picture of your pregnant test. Oh my gosh!!! Oh my gosh!!! Girl I am so happy for you! It's like it's happening to/for me too.....when you've hung together as much as "us" ladies have and been through these fertility heartaches you feel so connected. Praise the Lord! Amazing, I feel like singing, ok I will :-) Hee hee. Be blessed. Vee
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